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Thursday, January 28th, 2010

Time:9:11 pm.
Hey everyone who's still on here, I'm gonna try doin a blog instead of this, we'll see how it goes.

http://thedblog1.blogspot.com/
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Friday, March 27th, 2009

Time:11:41 pm.
I'm so sick of getting my hopes up. From now on, I won't expect anything, that way I can never be disappointed, just surprised.

But I'm glad I didn't just sit around waiting like I've done before.
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Thursday, March 5th, 2009

Time:4:37 pm.
Mood: optimistic.
This week has been good.
Was home early on Monday due to a canceled class.
Went to Farmers' with Yasmin on Tuesday & had a good talk with her, cleared up A LOT of things.
It rained a lot yesterday, which I love, so that put me in a good mood right away. :)
& I slept in today & finally saw "Coraline." I really liked it, a lot more than I thought I would.
No homework due tomorrow, done with class around 1.

I'm also looking forward to this weekend & next week. Shayne's gonna be in town & then next week is Sam's birthday, so we're doing Disneyland one day, dinner on another & then hitting Hollywood on the weekend. Thinking about next weekend is gonna get me through next week, haha.

I started hanging & talking with people from my "past." It's good to see that they're still the same people & that I can still talk to them.

Worried about one of my friends & just about fed up with another.

Life has a way of balancing itself out though, with ups & downs & right now I think I'm heading upwards, so hopefully things will only get better from here on...hopefully being the KEY word ;)
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Sunday, March 1st, 2009

Time:6:57 pm.
Totul cerul era al meu, si marea.
Si sinteam ceva in privirea ta...altcandva.
Nici pic de culoare nu a mai ramas, poate nici un ceas, o iubire fara glas.

Urasc privirea ta, pierduta undeva.
Imi spui doar "nu."
Iubire deja vu.

Zambind, m-ai refuzat cu vorbe reci si te porti ca o straina...

E normal?
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2009

Time:6:42 pm.
Good weekend.

Friday - Old friends, new movie.

Saturday - Party, dinner, kickback, new friends.

Sunday - Work, Oscars, SLEEP

Good, balanced weekend. I'm satisfied :)
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Sunday, December 28th, 2008

Time:9:47 am.
So the past four days have been pretty good.

24 - Christmas Eve Dinner with the family

25 - Opened presents, got a shirt, a game, 1st season of Heroes & money & then we headed off to Disneyland & California Adventure. There was NO ONE, so awesome.

26 - More rides & shows, kinda cold but so worht it!

27 - Went to Sonic for the 1st time! So good. Then went to see Beat Antique & Bass Nectar with Karissa, Andrew, Ryan & Nick.

Winter break has been so fun so far, let's hope it doesn't lose momentum :)
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Sunday, December 14th, 2008

Time:11:09 pm.
Thank you to everyone who either came to one of my birthday celebrations or texted me or left me a comment on FaceBook or MySpace.

This was the most memorable birthday I've EVER had & I'm glad I was able to share it with all of you.

:)
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Wednesday, December 10th, 2008

Time:10:28 pm.
OK. Since I know you all read this religiously, here's the plan, if you're interested.

BJ's in Westwood, Saturday @ 7:00pm.

Paymon, Casey & Danielle are pretty much the only "for sures" at this point.

The Maybes/People I haven't been able to talk to yet are:

Tina
Yasmin
Grace
Sam
Nick S.
Jesse

If you don't wanna come, can't come or don't wanna see certain people, then that's up to you.

Any questions? You all have my number/AIM
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Sunday, November 9th, 2008

Time:2:21 am.
:)
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Saturday, November 8th, 2008

Time:8:32 am.
So last night was pretty awesome. Went to the Homecoming game & fuckin saw EVERYONE!

I parked at Sam's & then she drove us over. She was with Marlen, but I did my best to be civilized. Sat with Nahla, Lourdes, Nick, Oscar, Andrea & Yesenia, but we really didn't watch the game lol.

Then I saw like half the film kids & they had all planned to wear their jackets (I think) & I happened to be wearing mine, so that was fun. Ran into Chivo & talked with him for a little, saw some of my friends from CSUN (random) & a bunch of now seniors from CPY - they left for BOB this morning, awww, I miss Y&G. Sam had to give Ashley & Gina a ride, & Ashley was nice to me, really surprising, we even had a few laughs.

They put somethin in my lollipop at the snack stand cause I was so fuckin hyper all night.

Then I come home to a party in my garage. I think my new favorite drink is Disoronno & coke - so good! I was so out of it, I think my sister got a little mad that I was drinking, oh well.

Work today then Santa Monica, maybe a movie, we'll see.
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Friday, November 7th, 2008

Time:11:59 am.
Haha, college is awesome. I was supposed to have 4 classes today, but now I'll end up only having 2! Thank God for not having subs in college, it's the best.

Also, I ran into a friend from Culver today, unexpected surprise. He & I talked for a good hour, about high school and life, it was fun.

Then I met this cute chick during a study for a Psych student, quick encounter, but totally worth it.

Thinking about changing my major, don't know yet. So many options, so many paths I could choose to pursue, we'll see what happens.

I honestly think I've done all I can...we'll see if that's true tonight.
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Wednesday, October 29th, 2008

Time:9:42 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
I'm posting this here because not all of you are online right now & I don't think it's fair for me to say this to only one person, make one person deal with this, or risk it being lost in translation.

So I'm putting it here, so you all have it, in writing.

I don't know what happened, I really don't. I've known you guys between 3 & 7 years & now I haven't seen any of you in at least a month. What happened, what changed?

I don't know what else to try.

I don't want you guys to think I'm being dramatic, or that I'm blowing this out of proportion. I've been lying to myself, ignoring the possible truth & holding on to false hope. I've been keeping myself in this limbo between an ignorant, safe bliss and a scary realization.

If our friendship is over, that's fine, I'll deal with it, but I want to know why. I think I at least deserve to know what's happening.

It might be easy for you guys to "move on" since you have each other, but I don't have anyone. It's been so hard for me to know that you all still hang out, you all know what's going on in each other's lives. Your guys' new group is OUR highschool group, minus me.

Did I do something? I miss having you guys in my life. Why did everything have to change & why did it have to change so quickly?

I still live 5 minutes away from all of you, I'm still here. Why does it feel like I don't matter anywhere?

Please take this seriously, because believe it or not, it took me a lot of courage to put this up here. You have no idea how scared I am about how you'll all react to this, whether it be with anger or indifference.

I don't want pity or fake sympathy, just honesty.

I just need to know what happened, what's happening now & what's gonna happen with us...

Do I still matter to any of you, do I still exist to any of you?

Please, I'm literally begging you, let me know.
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Sunday, October 19th, 2008

Time:9:18 am.
I was really wanting this week to be over. I wanted to be done with the three midterms, the 7-hour shifts at work...& now it's Sunday...I guess I got my wish, haha.

Psychology is getting really interesting, I got a 98 on my last test :)

I'm getting closer to the people at work, it's so awesome to be able to think of them as just new friends rather than my "co-workers."

This weekend rocked though. Shakey's on Friday. Short shift on Saturday with Michelle & Jamie then Pink Taco with Sam & Jen. That is some of the best Mexican food I've ever had - & fried ice cream!

Then we hit up the hooka bar in Hollywood. The guy's laptop got stolen, I felt so bad. It was a couple of guys (I think they were a couple) & he spent the whole night running around trying to find them - fuckin sucks.

Good times, good laughs. There's no place like Hollywood - all the crazies, the tourists, the youngsters - it's one of a kind.

::sigh::

Sunday.

I guess I should do homework, but I really don't feel like it.

Peace.
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Wednesday, October 15th, 2008

Time:6:31 am.
My alarm went off early, so I'm up. I usually can't function in the morning, so it's surprising that I'm writing coherently.

I have 2 midterms today, one after another, but I know that when I'm done it'll be a huge weight off my shoulders.

I'm trying to move on like everyone else & even though I can try my hardest to fool myself into thinking that everything's fine, that I'm fine, I know that it's not, that I'm not.

I really don't know what's gonna happen & now more than ever I feel like I'm the only one that cares.
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Thursday, October 2nd, 2008

Time:10:23 pm.
Today was one of the most random days, but still fun.

At work I spent about an hour talking with my co-worker Michelle about Dali & Bunuel, avant garde theatre, film noir and underground music - it was awesome.

Then this guy on the bus saw my Beatles shirt & told me this story about hwo he went to Canada & found these Beatles albums that are out of print in the US & that he gave them to his friend who hosts a radio show out of CSUN!

& then I ended up in Santa Monica tonight with Paola. We talked about A LOT of random things; I really missed having her in my life, she's definitely unique & actually really insightful. Things mean so much more to me when they're told to me in Spanish.

School tomorrow & then, who knows? Maybe movies or dinner or nothing, as usual lol.
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Monday, September 29th, 2008

Time:11:46 pm.
Apparition...

Phantasm...

Spirit...

Specter...

Phantom...

...GHOST

That's what it feels like...empty, hollow, invisble, non-existant...

I'm still here, I promise...
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Sunday, September 28th, 2008

Time:4:35 pm.
::sigh::

Oh well...I give up lol.
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Thursday, September 25th, 2008

Time:9:54 am.
Mood: amused.
Last night was ridiculous, it was fuckin crazy, but hey, that's Hollywood for you. Like I told her, "Now we have another story to add to the list." It was good to just talk about life, tell stories and remember past memories - it's a good change of pace from all the petty gossip & shit-talking that seems to frequent my life. & it's good to know that our parents are still there for us. I know we all wanna say "I'm 18 - I'm an adult!" but, we're still at home, they still buy us almost everything, feed us & shelter us. It was good to realize that even though we're growing up, we're not done yet, & that just made me feel really good for some reason :)

Any doubt I had in fate or destiny or a higher power is definitely gone. I pretty much asked for something on Sunday & I've gotten it everyday this week.
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Monday, September 22nd, 2008

Time:9:34 pm.
Haven't written in a while, following Yasmin's example lol.

"Without"

I can't feel myself without you
& I can't go back now
Everday I tell myself
That we'll be us again, somehow

I drown in your eyes
& I gasp for just a drop of air
Even when you're in plain sight
I can't see you anywhere

You always hide from me
I'm always the second to last to know
If I want you, I can't have you
I just want this second to last, you know?

I remember how we loved each other
& the times I think about you - I just can't count
I still don't know who I am
& without you, it's even harder to figure out
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Sunday, September 21st, 2008

Time:11:05 pm.
So this weekend was fun, I feel like things are back to normal, at least for me. I feel bad that I couldn't go to Shayne's, but I know there'll be other times. I got paid $300 on Saturday which is good since I only work one day this upcoming week.

I don't feel like I'm in college or that Summer is over. I've just been so busy with work & homework & driving, I can't believe that September is almost over.

I'm really excited for Halloween, I spent my 30 minute break in Aahs just looking at all the shit they have, haha. I just wish I knew what I was gonna do, I already asked for that weekend off at work.

I don't know how to describe it, but it's like life is a movie or a show, same stuff always happens. I barely have time to think about what's going on or to reflect on anything. I feel like my life hasn't started yet...I don't know, maybe I'm overthinking this, like I always do.

It's late, I'm rambling. I miss high school, I miss the AVPA & I miss Argentina...& I miss her.
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